I'VE REACHED A POINT where I believe I'm right at a personal redline. I once had a very fast car that I'd push near that same point and I could sense its drop in grip and its diminishing torque. It's not very good for an engine to run at redline and in my personal case, it's not smart for me to accept conditions where my ratio of output per hour of labour actually drops the longer I stay on the job. That's happened already because I feel like I've redlined. I'm trying to work where I know I'm inefficient. I can see my amount of work and quality of work has dropped. This bothers me, but not as much as it bothers people who work with me. I don't think I can work out of this position. I do think I have to back off my work and let things settle. Fortunately, I've only a few weeks left in the academic semester and things will calm down.
I've been inside three failed start-ups in Ireland and my mind often thinks as an entrepreneur. When I was trying to make money for a business, I was clearly focused on the real process of the business. I wanted to help make real gains and often that meant getting the greatest amount of production outputs from inputs. In my current job, some of those outputs are measured as knowledge transfer. I know for a fact that my efficiency of sharing and transferring knowledge has decrease during the past four months.
Inside my dad's old business, I watched the monetary process unfold. I knew the key events of the year on which his business depended, just like retail merchants know which months help finance most of the year for their businesses. Where I work, I'm also aware of market value of our products. If I fail to deliver a quality third level experience, we can expect the current students to devalue what they are learning and to pass around their opinions to friends. As in a business, the number of interested customers (students) would drop.
Writing these thoughts on my blog help clear my head. I have to throttle back from redline and become more efficient again.